I’ve lived with depression for many years, I have been suicidal in the past, I was living in a constant state of misery since the age of about 15.
After my father passed away in June 2011 my depression got much worse, I started to self harm again, I drank bottles of wine at a time most days of the week, I slept far too much, my social life crumbled, I was generally detached from my friends and family. My family and I decided I needed to talk to my doctor about getting counselling, which I started October 31st 2011 (and still attend presently.) I was lucky enough to get a very good psychologist, she is young and understanding. I have learnt so much about myself and how to work through tough moments because of this program.
But one night I couldn’t control it. I tried to kill myself again. I was able to see that just counselling was not enough, so I went to the doctor again to talk about anti-depressants. She agreed that I would benefit from them, so I have been on medication since March 8th of this year.
I do still have the occasional low, like last night, but I am able to power through these moments much faster because of the things I have learnt about myself. And my anxiety levels are actually controllable now.
I understand that this is something I will probably have to deal with for the rest of my life, but with the help of counsellors and doctors I can keep it under control.
Please feel free to share your own stories with me.